Monday, 28 March 2011

I also did it. Finally!

Finally, for the first time in my life, I did it! I knew that I would have to do it someday and always thought that it would be easy. When I realised that I was going to do it, I smiled to myself and thought to myself: ‘This is going to be easy’. After all, I’ve seen it ‘live’ -- this intimate, secretive ‘dance’ between two people, and have seen it any number of times on television and in movies (though it has inadvertently been dramatic in most of them!)

As a kid one is warned against it (mostly by elder siblings or by parents who are open to talk about such issues) and in catechism classes one is taught that it is a sin. Socially it is a taboo but nevertheless a majority of the people have done it and continue to do it – at street corners, behind cars… almost every conceivable place on earth.

But soon I was a bit apprehensive – ‘Should I? Am I erring?’ My hands were shaking and I started to sweat. No matter how many times one rehearses the whole act in the mind, it’s different when it happens.

However the other person was Dr Cool and that helped me a lot in the process.

Though I was feeling a bit ashamed and guilty right after it happened, now, in retrospect, I feel good and elated that it finally happened. The first time, they say, is the best. I am not sure about that but one thing is sure, it’s not going to be the last. After all living in 21st century India, how can one avoid getting into it at least once?

After everything was over, I did not know what to do – ‘Should I say ‘thank you’? Do I shake hands?’ I thought. I had not rehearsed this part in my mind. I just walked away without giving or waiting for any pleasantries. I don’t think I turned back either.

I am not sure how many would have had such an experience, even remember when they did it first and how many would be open about mentioning it.

(To be continued…)